Age...

I am 36 years old and for the first time the other day, I felt old. I was on my daughters field trip surrounded by all these other moms. They were all sweet and beautiful and I felt like I fit in. Until they started talking about their ages.  24, 26, 23 and 27.  The 27 year old had 6 kids! WHAT?  They were all at least 10 years younger than me! 10! Only the 27 year old had kids older than 6. (When did she start having babies??) I spent the remainder of the field trip walking around feeling old.  I think I was even walking old.  Even my reflection was screaming "yep, you're old"!  My dear children refer to my childhood as the 'olden days."  In response, I always say, "Yes, the 80's was FORRRRREEEEEVER AGO!  Can you believe I am still alive????"

UGH!  Whatever the reason, the number 10 killed me that day! I have always been like 3 or 5 years at the most older than some, but 10? I still feel like the same old me. I think the same, act the same, and really am just Me.  Age has never bothered me.  I still shop in the juniors section.  No, I don't want to be that frumpy lady. I still LOVE boy bands, Disney movies, and secretly wish that I could dress up like a princess and go to the store without being thought of as insane. Thank heaven for Halloween, so I can do just that! One direction is my favorite! If you see me driving down the street singing my head off its because I love them and secretly wish I was young enough to show it. I still think that the 1990's were 10 years ago and that I graduated high school 8 or so years ago. um, try 18 years ago!

My sweet husband turned 40 this year and he doesn't act any differently.  He has a few, ok a LOT of grey hair, but I think it's sexy.  Most of my close friends are over 40 and they look young to me.  I told this situation above to my husband and he looked at me and said, "How old would you be if your mind/ body didn't tell you how old you actually are?"  Hmmm... profound.  Right now I feel about 16 because I still get butterflies before I go out on dates with B, just like when I was 16. I went to lunch with 2 of my favorite ladies and I felt like a mom, whatever age that is. 30 something maybe?  Early 30's because that's when I felt like I knew everything. :)  I am sure tonight when it's time for bed, I may feel more like 74.  The more I think about age, the more I get depressed, so I will focus on living and making myself happy for the moment.  As long as I act my age, right?  Well, of course when no one is looking...

My little angel...

 This little angel of mine just turned 6.  While I am trying really hard to contemplate on how this happened, I am so very grateful for the journey she has taken me down.  From this little girl I have learned many things.  The most important is how to love unconditionally and how to have faith in every foot step.  This kid is wise beyond her years and I know she was sent to us for a very large purpose.  She can walk into any room and light it up with her small voice, her loud laughter and the very quirky things that she says.  I never know what is coming out of your mouth next.  She has a knowledge of her savior, Jesus Christ that is in her heart and that has been there since she was born. She talks of Him like he is her best friend and constant companion.  She speaks of Him as a brother and protector and she genuinely believes this.  She has an eternal perspective on life and she knows that all will be ok, NO MATTER WHAT. 

 

You don't care about material things, which makes it hard to buy you presents, but then again, not really because you love whatever is given to you.  You have the ability to make others around you feel special and loved, including those who you meet for the first time.  Your spirit is infectious and can bring a smile to anyone's face.  You have an odd ability to randomly move your eyes in different directions and you take pride in this.  You are silly, loving, accepting and pure.  Please don't lose sight of who you are!  I know you won't because pressures around you don't knock you down.  Instead you walk away feeling even better about yourself!  I wish I had this talent.  You remind me everyday that I am loved and you accept me for who I am completely.  You speak of your twin that was lost early in my pregnancy, like you have an incredible relationship with her and know everything about her...  I know that you do.  Thank you, Anna!  My little living angel.

Anna, you have brought light into our world and we are forever lucky to call you ours! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA BANANA!!!

Oh, and PLEASE stop growing!  I know you won't, but I had to ask.

Blogger friends, come back!

Ok, so where is everyone??? All you amazing people that USED to blog, but don't anymore!  I miss you!  You inspire me, keep me going, make me laugh, make me cry, piss me off and much more!  I NEED back!  I have searched for others and let's face it.... I can't find anyone that measures up!  Do you know of some amazing blogs I need to follow???  If so, please share.

 

I know I have not been the best at blogging either!  Between gymnastics, soccer, summer, and everything else, I feel like my blog has moved to my Instagram page.  Cuz, let's face it... it's faster, easier and I can do it while I am shopping, sitting, waiting, having a special moment, you name it, I can do it!  BUT, I LOVE blogs!  So, this is my promise to myself that I will keep this blog up!  The main reason I did it was for journaling purposes for my kids.  But let's face it. This is where I come to see all of you, vent, boast and let go!  So, PLEASE all of my favorite people, you know who you are, PLEASE starting blogging again!  If any other reason, do it for ME!

Thank you!

Otherwise, do what I do..... Instagram and I will follow you there!