Yesterday I received a very unexpected and very wonderful phone call. The call was from a dear friend. One that moved awhile ago. One that has been going through so much and one that I have neglected horribly! I'm fairly certain I have just been in denial that she is gone and that I why I have been a terrible friend.
BUT, Hearing from her made my day, maybe even my year! When I hung up, I cried because I miss her. I miss her sweet smile that always comes no matter her circumstance or lack of sleep. I miss her talents. When I am around her, I feel more talented, (even though I am not!) I miss eating sushi with her and her cute husband. I also miss her children, so much. They are beautiful inside and out. Her darling daughter "M" has a very special place in my heart. When I am around her, I feel closer to God.
But most of all, I miss the long talks about life, challenges, how to see the light through those challenges, about God and his tender mercies. If anyone has experienced these things, she has.
I feel horrible that I have left her alone. She is struggling and that breaks my heart. I want her to know how much I value her friendship and all that she has done for me! Stuff that she doesn't know, but I hope she reads this and knows it's straight from my heart.
She has made me strive to be a better person, a better mother, a better wife.
She has shown me how to love unconditionally.
She has shown me strength and courage that I didn't know any person could have.
She finds happiness and goodness in anything and anyone.
Most of all, she has shown me how to be a true friend. One that does not judge or harm. One that accepts you for who you are and where you came from.
I love her. I gave her mom a HUGE hug at today and I hope she knows what an amazing person she has raised.
LOVE YOU S! I hope that you know I am so sorry for not calling, emailing or FB'ing! I can't wait to see you soon! I promise to make up for it!