Miss her terribly...

Yesterday I received a very unexpected and very wonderful phone call.  The call was from a dear friend.  One that moved awhile ago.  One that has been going through so much and one that I have neglected horribly! I'm fairly certain I have just been in denial that she is gone and that I why I have been a terrible friend.

BUT, Hearing from her made my day, maybe even my year!  When I hung up, I cried because I miss her.  I miss her sweet smile that always comes no matter her circumstance or lack of sleep.  I miss her talents.  When I am around her, I feel more talented, (even though I am not!)  I miss eating sushi with her and her cute husband.  I also miss her children, so much. They are beautiful inside and out. Her darling daughter "M" has a very special place in my heart.  When I am around her, I feel closer to God. 

But most of all, I miss the long talks about life, challenges, how to see the light through those challenges, about God and his tender mercies.  If anyone has experienced these things, she has.

I feel horrible that I have left her alone.  She is struggling and that breaks my heart.  I want her to know how much I value her friendship and all that she has done for me! Stuff that she doesn't know, but I hope she reads this and knows it's straight from my heart. 

She has made me strive to be a better person, a better mother, a better wife.

She has shown me how to love unconditionally.

She has shown me strength and courage that I didn't know any person could have. 

She finds happiness and goodness in anything and anyone.

Most of all, she has shown me how to be a true friend.  One that does not judge or harm.  One that accepts you for who you are and where you came from.

I love her.  I gave her mom a HUGE hug at today and I hope she knows what an amazing person she has raised.

LOVE YOU S! I hope that you know I am so sorry for not calling, emailing or FB'ing! I can't wait to see you soon!  I promise to make up for it!